Casey's surgery

Yesterday my husband had to have five teeth surgically removed. He had to take medicine before his appointment to knock him out as well as lots of numbing shots.  

His appointment was about 2 hours long.  But the surgeon said he did great.  

This is pre-op. 

 

All the teeth that had to be removed. 

This was him post-op. He had lots pain medicine and was still groggy. Fell asleep and stayed asleep. 

 You can see his mouth is a little swollen still. 

But today is day 2 and he is doing much better. He is loving all the extra special treatment I'm giving him. He is totally milking it. 

Lazy Lazy Lazy

Its true, I am probably one of the laziest people ever. Especially when it comes to my homework and my schooling. I really need to get a handle on this not wanting to go to school thing. I was all gung-ho a month ago and now I'm struggling to do my math homework.

Like I said, I had a complete and perfect puzzle put in my head and now its like its been shredded.

Ideally I want to move out, have a baby and just be a stay at home mom. But I seem to always have to find something to preoccupy myself with for the time being....no wonder I get so board with everything I have to do; its not really what I want.


Not feeling like me...

Humpty Dumpty sat on a wall....

I knew things were going to change, but i thought it wouldn't be for the worse. I understand things are difficult, but maybe its just me not knowing how to deal? I just want to be alone, and everyone keeps coming over and i understand people grieve differently. Its just annoying. Everything has changed so much, i don't think i can take anymore. I want to make things easy as they are, but i can't help but feel things would be easier if we were on our own.

And its not going to be like that for a long while, which makes me feel so many things. I feel like i am stuck between a rock and a hard place. Im sinking in quick sand.

I feel like the things i want are unreachable and it makes me want to give up. But then so many people will be disappointed in me.

My brain used to be a perfect puzzle and all the pieces fit together. Now, its like the pieces have been put through the shredder and I'm trying to put them together again. Humpty Dumpty sat on a wall, humpty dumpty had great fall.....

NOT Making it....

My life has been extremely difficult lately. My father-in-law passed away suddenly on August 28, 2013. He suffered a heart attack. It was sudden, but he had heart problems for years. He had a quadruple bypass at 34. We always knew he would leave us from a heart related something, but never did we think it would be at the young age of 48. Our family is torn apart and broken. There are so many uncertainties. My husband and i have been living with them for the last 2 years, it is especially hard on us not seeing him everyday and him not coming home from work.

One of the things that hurt me the most is that he will never meet our grandchildren, this tears me up inside. I have already lost 2 grandmothers that i desperately wanted my children to know and vice versa. Harry was top 5 on my list! I am down to 2. How sad!

As you can imagine, this has made me push the "getting pregnant" issue more than usual. I don't think i could bare losing anyone else dear to me. I have already seen so much death for a 21 year old. I know how precious life is and creating new life gives me a sense of hope and love. Like whats broken can be pieced back together.

Our family needs prayers and strength. God had a plan and even though we don't understand it, I have to trust him. I feel like I am at the bottom of the totem pole. With no plans of moving up any time soon.

For some reason, Casey's side of the family lives so fricken far up north that we can never see them only gets together for funerals. So even though we were hurting inside; it was comforting that all our family was over and in town for a few days.

Some pics of our family~

 
 

 

 
 
 

As for when we will being thinking about starting our family....who knows. I am ready now, but it takes 2. And i think Casey just has to much on his mind for that and i don't want to keep forcing it.

Weekend Shenanigans

Hello Friends!

Sorry, I haven't been able to blog lately. I haven't really been home since this past Thursday. Tonight is the first night I have been back at my desk, blogging.

What have I been doing? Let me give you the run down.

Thursday: My best friend and her husband come over for dinner. My husband and her husband had to work together on Friday so we decided to spend the night at there house because it was closer to the job. Spent the night!

Friday: I went to work and then came back to there house. We went and picked up her step daughter from Toledo. Came home and baked a cake, wrote on the sidewalk with chalk, rode bikes, played basketball and colored-while the guys were still at work. The men didn't get home from work till 9p.m.  Spent the night!

Saturday: My friend had school on Saturday so I woke up and took Haley-my friends daughter to Mcdonalds and I had to pick up my school books from the college. Then we went to Belle-Tire. After that, we watched Epic and then I got my tattoo worked on.

Then we went home!!

Sunday: We went to church then back to our friends house for dinner with all of there family. Then home. It feels good to be home.

I hope you all enjoyed your weekend!!

Owls Owls Owls

My obsession! I have always loved owls, I thought they were cute. But O MY OWL!!!! Lately, I have been on owl overload. Including this cute little guy I bought for my fall decorating ideas! Pier One has so many owl decorations out for Autumn right now that I literally whore out the words Awe, that's so cute, and o my owl. Ill be buying something from there every week. Wings down!!

 

What better way than to mix my two favorite things. Owls and cupcakes!!

 

I will probably print something like this off to hang around my house at some point. Yea, I'm that obsessive!

I totally cant wait till I come across some more adorable owl things. I even asked my husband if I could get one for a pet. He said that's a bit psychotic extreme.

 

 

Fall Is Near!!

I don't know how the weather has been in your area, but in our neck of the woods we have been having chilly mornings and cool days with nice breezes.

This is my favorite time of year-when everything goes back to normal. School is starting, fall is coming and so are the holidays! I am so excited to decorate for Halloween, Thanksgiving/Fall, and Christmas!!

I picked this beauty up at Pier One Imports today for $11!! Score!

How cute is this owl! I am obsessed with everything owl; there is so much more cute Fall décor at Pier One that I will most definitely be going back to stock up!

In other Fall news, I have started stocking up on my Fall wardrobe! Bring on the leggings and baggy sweaters with fricken adorable boots!!

Target has leggings on sale for $10 right now! Score!!!

Im also thinking about Halloween costumes for me and the hubby. Ideas include: Oreos & Milk, a Hunter & a deer or the ones that we will most likely be doing....MINIONS!!!

Bring on the festivities!!